Tak jsme tady. Na Gibraltaru. Sen, kter\u00fd se vyno\u0159il p\u0159ed rokem, napln\u011bn. Nebo ne?<\/p>\n
Sp\u00edme tu dv\u011b noci v kouzeln\u00e9m hotelu v koloni\u00e1ln\u00edm stylu. Tedy jsme na chv\u00edli opustili n\u00e1\u0161 b\u00e1je\u010dn\u00fd dome\u010dek na kol\u00e1ch a nechali ho odpo\u010d\u00edvat na hotelov\u00e9m parkovi\u0161ti. Skoro ihned po ubytovan\u00ed jsem na p\u016flhodiny usnula, v\u010dera u maj\u00e1ku pod sk\u00e1lou p\u0159i pohledu na africk\u00e9 pahorky jemn\u011b vystupuj\u00edc\u00ed z mlhy c\u00edtila vlny dojet\u00ed a dneska r\u00e1no v z\u00e1v\u011bru sn\u00eddan\u011b v britsk\u00e9m stylu se rozplakala.<\/p>\n
V hlav\u011b tot\u00e1ln\u00ed zmatek.<\/p>\n
Co d\u00e1l? Ze sv\u00e9 pouti do Santiaga v\u00edm, \u017ee nen\u00ed dobr\u00e9 vyhodnocovat pou\u0165 (a cht\u00edt vid\u011bt v\u00fdsledky) v p\u016flce cesty. Ale \u017ee ta p\u016flka n\u011bco je a k n\u011b\u010demu vyb\u00edz\u00ed. K ohl\u00e9dnut\u00ed se, nac\u00edt\u011bn\u00ed se. Kdo a kde jsem te\u010f, tady v bodu nula?<\/p>\n
Jakoby ta cesta kop\u00edrovala pr\u016fb\u011bh \u017eivota. Prvotn\u00ed nad\u0161en\u00ed a zv\u011bdav\u00e9 zkoum\u00e1n\u00ed n\u00e1sleduj\u00ed postupn\u011b sb\u00edran\u00e9 zku\u0161enosti a na nich pomalu stav\u011bn\u00e9 sebev\u011bdom\u00ed. A pak nastupuje jist\u00e1 zralost a\u017e rutina. A pak najednou zlom a zd\u00e1nliv\u00fd konec v\u0161eho. Jo, je to jak psal m\u016fj mu\u017e ve sv\u00e9m \u00favodn\u00edm textu, \u010das, kdy m\u00e1 \u010dlov\u011bk zd\u00e1nliv\u011b v\u0161e d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9 z pohledu spole\u010dnosti. Partnera, d\u011bti, pr\u00e1ci, bydlen\u00ed\u2026 A d\u00e1l? V\u00edc pr\u00e1ce, v\u00edc pen\u011bz, lep\u0161\u00ed bydlen\u00ed? St\u00e1\u0159\u00ed? D\u016fchod?<\/p>\n
D\u00e1l je Afrika. Atlantik. I kdy\u017e jsou v mlze. Nezn\u00e1mo. D\u00e1l je Mark\u00e9ta, o kter\u00e9 toho m\u00e1lo v\u00edm. D\u00e1l je -poznat se nov\u011b. Proto\u017ee moje p\u0159edstava o mn\u011b je stra\u0161n\u011b omezen\u00e1. (Jak \u0159\u00edk\u00e1 Daniela Kol\u00e1\u0159ov\u00e1 v Kulov\u00e9m blesku: \u201cTo nen\u00ed cel\u00e9!\u201d) D\u00e1l je \u017e\u00edt sebe. Zd\u00e1 se to tak snadn\u00e9. Ale nen\u00ed. Tis\u00edce let lid\u00e9 v t\u00e9hle f\u00e1zi \u017eivota kon\u010dili. Dovedli s vyp\u011bt\u00edm v\u0161ech sil sv\u00e9 d\u011bti k dosp\u011blosti. D\u00e1l nic. \u00dakol spln\u011bn.<\/p>\n
Obt\u00ed\u017enost t\u00e9hle zm\u011bny u sebe mimo jin\u00e9 vid\u00edm (a b\u011bhem cesty na to nar\u00e1\u017e\u00edm) ve sv\u00e9m postoji k pen\u011bz\u016fm. Pokavad jde o platby v r\u00e1mci z\u00e1kladn\u00edch pot\u0159eb nebo platby, kde se mohu za\u0161t\u00edtit n\u011bjak\u00fdm MY, orientuju se. Jakmile ale jde o v\u00fdb\u011br, rozhodov\u00e1n\u00ed a n\u00e1sledn\u011b platbu n\u011b\u010deho, co se t\u00fdk\u00e1 jen m\u011b, pohybuju se \u010dasto v jak\u00e9si slep\u00e9 skvrn\u011b. Najednou se nevyzn\u00e1m v tom, jestli J\u00c1 te\u010f opravdu pot\u0159ebuju zmrzlinu? Pauzu? D\u00e1t si u mo\u0159e ryby? Vid\u011bt tohle m\u011bsto a plavat na t\u00e9hle pl\u00e1\u017ei? Jsem \u00fazkostn\u00e1, jsem jako jako navigace v nekone\u010dn\u00e9m p\u0159epo\u010d\u00edt\u00e1v\u00e1n\u00ed a stra\u0161n\u011b bych se cht\u011bla chytit n\u011b\u010deho jako \u2013 tohle kup pro sv\u00e9 d\u011bti, tohle po\u0159i\u010f sv\u00e9mu mu\u017ei. Jen\u017ee d\u011bti jsou \u010d\u00edm d\u00e1l v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed a m\u016fj mu\u017e je na tenhle typ \u201cp\u00e9\u010de\u201d alergick\u00fd. A tak mi nezb\u00fdv\u00e1 ne\u017e se vracet k sob\u011b. A k sob\u011b. A k sob\u011b. A u\u010dit se to. A nezlobit se na sebe, kdy\u017e mi to nejde. A zkou\u0161et to znova. Mo\u017en\u00e1 i za v\u0161echny sv\u00e9 prab\u00e1by a praprab\u00e1by, kter\u00e9 na to nem\u011bly \u010das.<\/p>\n
Tohle je kus moj\u00ed \u201cAfriky\u201d, m\u00e9ho nov\u00e9ho kontinentu, do n\u011bho\u017e chci vstoupit.<\/p>\n
Z britsk\u00e9ho m\u011bsta s arabsk\u00fdm kouzlem a atlantick\u00fdm v\u011btrem v\u00e1s zdrav\u00ed Mark\u00e9ta.<\/p>\n
(A z t\u00e9 fotky to nen\u00ed vid\u011bt, ale tam v zadu v mlze je Afrika. N\u011bkter\u00e9 v\u011bci jsou mo\u017en\u00e1 neviditeln\u00e9, ale existuj\u00ed…)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Tak jsme tady. Na Gibraltaru. Sen, kter\u00fd se vyno\u0159il p\u0159ed rokem, napln\u011bn. Nebo ne? Sp\u00edme tu dv\u011b noci v kouzeln\u00e9m …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":2393,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[40],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2392","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-gibraltar","entry entry-center"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2392","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2392"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2392\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2394,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2392\/revisions\/2394"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2393"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2392"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2392"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tenpravy-taprava.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2392"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}